*yawn*

im feeling down for myself....why? i dont know... im too negative maybe.... no not maybe, definitely. i am too negative. how can i stop that? just got done watching that movie the grudge (fucked up movie by the way) and now im just sitting here lonely and bored. i will call wes in alittle bit, when i get into bed. i miss him, hope i get to see him tomorrow... or wednesday. we are going to the eminem concert on friday, i cant wait, it should be alot of fun. im worried about work right now. the gym is falling apart in front of my eyes and im worried that im going to be out of a job soon because i think it is going out of business... but i still sit there and wait... i dont know why. i should find another job now so at least im safe. i dont have money as it is, i cant afford to live without working. even with my other job, its still not enough. i barely get by as it is. i hate having money problems, i wish i would hit the lotto. well i think im gonna go to bed..........write more later...........